ā'Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good; His love endures forever. Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story.' Psalm 107
Having been born in New York and raised in Michigan, I am now retired in Virginia. My husband, Gordie, and I moved to Chesterfield in the fall of 2021. Our involvement with Bible Study Fellowship brought us into the church building, and after reading literature on the welcome table and reviewing the website, we visited and found this to be our new church home. The Lord guided us through every step in relocating and led us right here.
When I was young, we believed in God but didnāt often attend church. After meeting Gordie and wanting to be together as much as we couldāincluding Sunday morningsāwe alternated going to his church and mine. I found that when we went to his, there was something I could relate toāsomething to take with me and think about during the week. Scripture is absolutely true: 'Faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ.' āØRomans 10:17
After we were married and decided it was a good time for a baby, we were pregnant not long after. It soon seemed I was having a miscarriage and was scheduled for a D&C the following morning. My doctor visited and ordered an ultrasound. When the scan was done, there she wasāheart beating, arms moving, legs kicking. There was strong speculation that I had lost her twin, and much concern for her. I remained on bed rest and prayed for our baby. She was born healthy and beautiful and perfect, and my world turned pink.
I was a stay-at-home mom, growing in the Lord and loving my life.
Three years later, I did have a miscarriage. Then I could never get pregnant againānot
understanding, but trusting God and His sovereignty and wisdom in His perfect plan for my life. He led me to Sunday school teaching, Girl Scout leading, and, when our daughter started first grade, a part-time job as a church secretary. It was there, as I simply delivered a message, that I learned of an excellent dermatologist in town. An appointment with her diagnosed a serious melanoma, with fear it had gone too far. I had extensive surgery, scans, and tests, and in the end, margins were clear and results were good. Five years laterāa lymph node scare. Three years after thatāagain. The doctor said he was amazed at the negative biopsy results.
Then, in 2008, my world turned pink againābut this time, there were pink ribbons and T-shirts and breast cancer awareness walks, a lumpectomy, and radiation. I remember thanking the Lord for all the people who cared for me, and as they prayed, their faith in Him would grow.
Seven years later, I held on to the Lord again with healing hope. A new and different breast cancer would require a bilateral mastectomy, reconstructive surgery, and chemo. With the recommendation of my doctors, I had genetic testing. I prayed that this cancer I seemed to carry would begin and end with me.
The results showed I inherited a mutated gene that could cause melanoma, breast cancer, and colon cancerāwhich is how my dad died. It hurts my heart that my daughter inherited the same gene from me. Shortly thereafter, I had a hysterectomy due to changes caused by my medications, and after we moved here, you all prayed me through a concerning kidney surgery.
In everything, I have found my Lord right there with me. Iāve walked arm in arm with my
Savior. He has drawn me closer to Him, and Iāve learned to 'be joyful in hope, patient in
affliction, faithful in prayer.;⨠Romans 12:12
There have been sweet kisses from heaven in between, as the Lord has lifted His face toward me and blessed me with eyes to see joy in the ordinary days, with abundant grace in love, family, and friendships.
Would I know Him as I do had it been different? Probably not. And that makes it all worth it.
I gave Him my life all those years agoātherefore, my life is His. When Iām focused on Him, thereās an unexplainable, deep, and peaceful joy that comes as I let go of expectations and remember what I know to be true about God, trusting in Him. I have learned itās really not about me. Itās all about Him and what Heās doing on levels I cannot fathom. For the relationship I have with Him and the deep assurance of what I believe, I am eternally grateful."
Cathy Hinzmann can be contacted here.
Having been born in New York and raised in Michigan, I am now retired in Virginia. My husband, Gordie, and I moved to Chesterfield in the fall of 2021. Our involvement with Bible Study Fellowship brought us into the church building, and after reading literature on the welcome table and reviewing the website, we visited and found this to be our new church home. The Lord guided us through every step in relocating and led us right here.
When I was young, we believed in God but didnāt often attend church. After meeting Gordie and wanting to be together as much as we couldāincluding Sunday morningsāwe alternated going to his church and mine. I found that when we went to his, there was something I could relate toāsomething to take with me and think about during the week. Scripture is absolutely true: 'Faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ.' āØRomans 10:17
After we were married and decided it was a good time for a baby, we were pregnant not long after. It soon seemed I was having a miscarriage and was scheduled for a D&C the following morning. My doctor visited and ordered an ultrasound. When the scan was done, there she wasāheart beating, arms moving, legs kicking. There was strong speculation that I had lost her twin, and much concern for her. I remained on bed rest and prayed for our baby. She was born healthy and beautiful and perfect, and my world turned pink.
I was a stay-at-home mom, growing in the Lord and loving my life.
Three years later, I did have a miscarriage. Then I could never get pregnant againānot
understanding, but trusting God and His sovereignty and wisdom in His perfect plan for my life. He led me to Sunday school teaching, Girl Scout leading, and, when our daughter started first grade, a part-time job as a church secretary. It was there, as I simply delivered a message, that I learned of an excellent dermatologist in town. An appointment with her diagnosed a serious melanoma, with fear it had gone too far. I had extensive surgery, scans, and tests, and in the end, margins were clear and results were good. Five years laterāa lymph node scare. Three years after thatāagain. The doctor said he was amazed at the negative biopsy results.
Then, in 2008, my world turned pink againābut this time, there were pink ribbons and T-shirts and breast cancer awareness walks, a lumpectomy, and radiation. I remember thanking the Lord for all the people who cared for me, and as they prayed, their faith in Him would grow.
Seven years later, I held on to the Lord again with healing hope. A new and different breast cancer would require a bilateral mastectomy, reconstructive surgery, and chemo. With the recommendation of my doctors, I had genetic testing. I prayed that this cancer I seemed to carry would begin and end with me.
The results showed I inherited a mutated gene that could cause melanoma, breast cancer, and colon cancerāwhich is how my dad died. It hurts my heart that my daughter inherited the same gene from me. Shortly thereafter, I had a hysterectomy due to changes caused by my medications, and after we moved here, you all prayed me through a concerning kidney surgery.
In everything, I have found my Lord right there with me. Iāve walked arm in arm with my
Savior. He has drawn me closer to Him, and Iāve learned to 'be joyful in hope, patient in
affliction, faithful in prayer.;⨠Romans 12:12
There have been sweet kisses from heaven in between, as the Lord has lifted His face toward me and blessed me with eyes to see joy in the ordinary days, with abundant grace in love, family, and friendships.
Would I know Him as I do had it been different? Probably not. And that makes it all worth it.
I gave Him my life all those years agoātherefore, my life is His. When Iām focused on Him, thereās an unexplainable, deep, and peaceful joy that comes as I let go of expectations and remember what I know to be true about God, trusting in Him. I have learned itās really not about me. Itās all about Him and what Heās doing on levels I cannot fathom. For the relationship I have with Him and the deep assurance of what I believe, I am eternally grateful."
Cathy Hinzmann can be contacted here.
āI grew up in Richmondāa native Richmonderāand I met my husband, Paul, at Liberty University. I always wanted to have a family, and the Lordās been gracious enough to let me do that.
I grew up at Immanuel Baptist Church on Monument Avenue. Thatās where I was baptized, married, and where our girls were raised. It was a big change for me when we decided to switch churches and start coming to Sycamore in 2019.
We were looking for a community church that was close to homeāsomething traditional, where Scripture was read out loud, worship felt reverent, and the gospel was proclaimed. We loved Sycamore right away. We started volunteering in the kindergarten and first grade Sunday School class, and we still do that today. Itās one of our favorite things.
My faith became more real when I was pregnant with Seth. We were told there was an 83% chance he would be Down syndrome. He also had three holes in his heart, fluid around his heart, and a very thick nuchal fold around his neckāall markers for Down syndrome.
We had everyone we knew praying that God would heal him. When we went in for our final ultrasound, the doctor said everything looked completely normal. No holes, no fluid, no issues at all. They told us, āIf this had been your first ultrasound, we never would have suspected anything.ā
That was a miracle. Every single thing that had been wrong was healed. But when Seth was born, the doctor came in and said, āYes, he does have Down syndrome.ā And thatās when I knewāthis is exactly who God made him to be. He could have changed it, but He didnāt. That was confirmation of His will.
I always say life is changing, but God keeps using us in every season. As long as you have breath, He has a purpose.
It wasnāt easy for me to move from Baptist to Presbyterianāit felt like a big transitionābut God works in peopleās hearts. When you submit, God blesses. And He has blessed us here.
Grace is a big word at Sycamore. I donāt feel judgment here; I feel love. Iāve met people from all different backgrounds, and everyone is welcomed and accepted. Itās a church that really lives out grace.ā
ā Debbie Peterson. Debbie's favorite verse is 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 - "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."
āI am beautiful. I am strong. I am full of energy. And I love being with family and friends. I help in the sound booth once a month at the 11:00 service. I run slides with my dad. I want to be a greeter someday. I want a name tag. And I want to pass out bulletins.ā Seth has just started to be a greeter here at Sycamore - make sure you say hello!
I grew up at Immanuel Baptist Church on Monument Avenue. Thatās where I was baptized, married, and where our girls were raised. It was a big change for me when we decided to switch churches and start coming to Sycamore in 2019.
We were looking for a community church that was close to homeāsomething traditional, where Scripture was read out loud, worship felt reverent, and the gospel was proclaimed. We loved Sycamore right away. We started volunteering in the kindergarten and first grade Sunday School class, and we still do that today. Itās one of our favorite things.
My faith became more real when I was pregnant with Seth. We were told there was an 83% chance he would be Down syndrome. He also had three holes in his heart, fluid around his heart, and a very thick nuchal fold around his neckāall markers for Down syndrome.
We had everyone we knew praying that God would heal him. When we went in for our final ultrasound, the doctor said everything looked completely normal. No holes, no fluid, no issues at all. They told us, āIf this had been your first ultrasound, we never would have suspected anything.ā
That was a miracle. Every single thing that had been wrong was healed. But when Seth was born, the doctor came in and said, āYes, he does have Down syndrome.ā And thatās when I knewāthis is exactly who God made him to be. He could have changed it, but He didnāt. That was confirmation of His will.
I always say life is changing, but God keeps using us in every season. As long as you have breath, He has a purpose.
It wasnāt easy for me to move from Baptist to Presbyterianāit felt like a big transitionābut God works in peopleās hearts. When you submit, God blesses. And He has blessed us here.
Grace is a big word at Sycamore. I donāt feel judgment here; I feel love. Iāve met people from all different backgrounds, and everyone is welcomed and accepted. Itās a church that really lives out grace.ā
ā Debbie Peterson. Debbie's favorite verse is 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 - "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."
āI am beautiful. I am strong. I am full of energy. And I love being with family and friends. I help in the sound booth once a month at the 11:00 service. I run slides with my dad. I want to be a greeter someday. I want a name tag. And I want to pass out bulletins.ā Seth has just started to be a greeter here at Sycamore - make sure you say hello!
ā Seth Peterson. Seth's favorite verse is Proverbs 17:22 ā āA joyful heart is good medicine.ā
The Peterson family's contact information can be found here.
The Peterson family's contact information can be found here.
āIn 2021 we got the news that changed our life dramatically,ā Sue shares. āBoth in bad ways and good ways. And what weāre going to tell you is basically what we went through and how we got through all this.ā
Dave remembers the moment vividly: āIf you ever had a point in your life where your world came to a complete stop, but the world around you continued to moveāthen you know what itās like to get horrible news like cancer.ā
The months that followed were grueling. āIāve had three different chemo treatments. Iāve had immunotherapy that failed. I was in the hospital for two weeks for that. At that point the outlook wasnāt good. The only thing that would help and get me through it was another regimen of chemo and then hopefully a stem cell transplant. By the grace of God, I was able to get well enough for the transplant.ā
Even so, the isolation was difficult. āThat Christmas was hard,ā Dave recalls. āKids came to visit, the grandkids came to visit, but they all had to wear masks and they did it separate times. Through the process, there were dark days and darker nights. But I never felt that God wasnāt near me. And when Sycamore says theyāre going to pray for you, they mean it. I know people were praying for meāI felt their prayers. Thatās what got me through it.ā
Sue also remembers a striking moment in the hospital: āWhen they put the new stem cell in him, the doctor looked at the clock like a baby was born and he said, āRebirth.ā They handed him a birthday card and said, āYou are day one.ā The nurses sang Happy Birthday. Then one of them shined a flashlight under the IV tube, and I could see the stem cells running into his body. She said, āThat is what we call life.āā
Both have leaned on Scripture in their journey. āMy favorite verse has always been Colossians 1:17: āHe is before all things, and in Him all things hold together,āā Dave says. Sue adds, āRomans 8:28 is the one that Iāve held onto. āIn all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.ā It was hard in the beginning, but you realize He said all things. Even cancer number three.ā
Now, they offer encouragement to others walking hard roads. āIf somebody was going through the same thing I was going through, I would want to come alongside them anywhere I could,ā Dave says. āIād encourage them to hold strong to their faith, and let them know the support of family and church makes all the difference.ā
Sue adds, āIf someone asked me as a caregiver, I would say to somewhat be like Job's friends: be a friend, just listen. Donāt give up on hope, and make sure that hope is in the right thing. Hope doesnāt mean everything will turn out perfectāit will turn out His way, and thatās the way itās supposed to.ā
-Dave and Sue
-Dave and Sue
āI donāt remember a time in my life without God. I grew up in a Christian homeāmy parents were with the Navigatorsāand Scripture was always a part of my daily life. My mom would write verses on napkins or 3x5 cards for me when I was struggling with school, anxiety, or learning disabilities. From an early age, I knew my identity was rooted in Christ.
In high school, my family moved to Moscow after the fall of the Iron Curtain. Life there was chaoticāthings rarely worked, mafia members with machine guns patrolled the streets, and even the water wasnāt safe to drink. Thatās when Hebrews 13:5āāHe will never leave you nor forsake youāābecame my anchor. In a place where nothing felt reliable, God proved to be the only steady foundation.
But my story has not been easy. I was diagnosed with depression at 16, then chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia not long after. Two years ago, I was diagnosed with early-onset Parkinsonās. At first, the thought of fighting such a relentless disease left me completely exhausted. I told my mom, āI donāt know how I can fight this for the rest of my life.ā She reminded me: āWhen I am weak, then I am strong. Godās grace is sufficient for you.ā
That truth has reshaped how I live. Iāve always been a fighter, but now I fight differentlyānot in my own strength, but in Godās. Iāve learned to shift my focus from Parkinsonās to Christ. When I keep my eyes on Him, thereās joy, hope, and strength to keep moving one day at a time.
Some days I feel the weight of apathy or grief, but God is bigger than Parkinsonās. He is bigger than my weakness. And He is faithful. My measure of success now isnāt about what I can accomplish, but whether I walk this road with Him and help my family draw closer to Him through it.
Life may not look like I once dreamed, but Godās plan is still good. He has never left me, and He never will.ā
-Sarah Toole
But my story has not been easy. I was diagnosed with depression at 16, then chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia not long after. Two years ago, I was diagnosed with early-onset Parkinsonās. At first, the thought of fighting such a relentless disease left me completely exhausted. I told my mom, āI donāt know how I can fight this for the rest of my life.ā She reminded me: āWhen I am weak, then I am strong. Godās grace is sufficient for you.ā
That truth has reshaped how I live. Iāve always been a fighter, but now I fight differentlyānot in my own strength, but in Godās. Iāve learned to shift my focus from Parkinsonās to Christ. When I keep my eyes on Him, thereās joy, hope, and strength to keep moving one day at a time.
Some days I feel the weight of apathy or grief, but God is bigger than Parkinsonās. He is bigger than my weakness. And He is faithful. My measure of success now isnāt about what I can accomplish, but whether I walk this road with Him and help my family draw closer to Him through it.
Life may not look like I once dreamed, but Godās plan is still good. He has never left me, and He never will.ā
-Sarah Toole
"There are a number of verses that mean a lot to me, but my touchdown is the same as a lot of other peopleāRomans 8:28. I first read that in the New American Standard, which is a really, really tight translation. Word-for-word. And that translation says: āAnd we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.'
The thing that really stirs me about thatāPaul starts out with āand we know.ā Itās a given. Not something weāve got to study. We know this. And God causesāthere are translations that do a horrible job of that verse, because they leave that part out. One version says, āGod works in all things to bring out the good,ā like Heās reacting. No. He causes all things to work together for good. That means He causes even bad things to work for our good.
He caused my liver to failāfor the good of my family, my church, and for me. That may sound weird to some people, but to me, itās a huge comfort. Heās not opportunistic. Heās not going, āOh, this happenedālet me make something of it.ā No. Before the foundations of the earth were laid, He decreed that my liver was going to fail when I was 66 years old to accomplish His purposes.
And if He wasnāt in control of everything, how could He cause everything to work for our good? Itās not wasted effort. Nothing that befalls me is wasted. Itās all working to shape me more into His likeness.
Iāve been through the wringerānot just the liver stuff. I basically lost my life savings in a rough way. My brother went to prison for a while. It wasnāt his fault what happened to me, but it was all tied up in that. And every day, God is working on me to understand: Heās got it. Heās not gonna let me go. Heās not going to let anything happen to me that isnāt ultimately a good thing. I have to depend on Him for daily breadāand He delivers.
Now, I can still get dismayed, appalled, anxious about things. Iām human. But I have a rock I can hold onto. And going through a near-death experience? Well, if that doesnāt rattle your cage, I donāt know what will.
When I was in the hospital this time last year, I asked my family to play this playlist over and over, and it gave me great comfort. I think some of the reason for my feeling of comfort and serenity in the presence of the Angel of Death came, in part, from one particular song: Finally Home by MercyMe. If you're not familiar with it, it's a very sweet song about a son who wants to catch up his father on his life and the man he became when he, "finally makes it home." It's a little ambiguous as to which father he's talking about, whether earthly or heavenly. He goes on to talk about how he imagines his joy at his arrival into his Heavenly Father's presence. Anyway, it's a sweet song that greatly resonated with me when I was on the very edge, and I think it really best describes my feelings of that time. Not that I wanted to leave my family on earth, but imagining such a sweet homecoming made me content with my lot, regardless of what awaited me. Four years earlier, I was complaining to a former pastor that I often fell asleep mid-sentence when saying my prayers at night, when he cut me off. 'Did you ever have a child fall asleep in your arms? How did you feel? Were you angry, or was it a precious moment? That's how He feels.' Ever since then, I've imagined reaching Heaven, crawling into my adoptive big-brother's lap, putting my arms around his neck and burying my face in his shoulder, weeping for the joy of it. That thought sustained me through the ordeal.
I wasnāt wringing my hands about where Iād end upāI was secure in that. What I cared about was the example Iād leave. Would I go out peacefully? Faithfully? Iāve been by both my parentsā bedsides, and I lost my sister nearly 20 years ago. But Iāve also seen someone die in pure terrorāa former brother-in-lawāand it left a mark on the people who were with him. I didnāt want that. I wanted to go out like some of the heroes of the faithāfaithful and calm, even in suffering.
And honestly, I believe God gave me the grace for that moment. Not because Iām anything special. I didnāt gin up that faith on my own. It was given to meāin a measure proportionate to my need. Iām reminded of Galadriel in The Fellowship of the Ringāthat moment where she rejects the One Ring and realizes she has passed the test. The difference is, I didnāt pass because of anything in me, rather God gave me the measure sufficient to 'pass my test.'
Iād like to tell people: donāt be afraid. It might hurt between now and glory, but itās going to be okay. You donāt have to wring your hands and worry. Heās holding you. He will take care of you too.
One more thingāCovenant Theology is a huge comfort to me. Godās normative way of working is through families. Heās not restricted to that, but thatās how Heās chosen to work down through the ages. Iāve got daughters who are having their struggles. But I believe they are children of the covenant. I donāt believe God gave me any non-elect children. Itās possible, sureāScripture gives examplesābut usually for a specific purpose. I donāt see that in our case. So Iām not worried about where theyāll end up.
What worries me sometimes is: did I fail them? And how many tears will be cried before theyāre more solidly on the foundation? If I could spare them some of the trials I went through, I would. But God deals with us as individuals. Heāll tap them on the shoulder when the time comes. He did for meāI was 34 when I first really heard the gospel.
So yeah, even if I donāt see it before I die, I have every confidence that I donāt have to worry about them. Thatās a huge comfort.
And one last thingādonāt forget to mention thisāthe Sycamore craftspeople who worked on making our home accessible? The ramp, the grab bars, everything? That was superb craftsmanship. Emphasis on SUPERB!!"
Chip's contact information can be found here.
Chip's contact information can be found here.
"Iām from Jersey City, New Jerseyāa real northern girlābut Iāve been in Virginia since 1988. I raised my family here. I was married, now divorced, and I have four childrenātwo living, two who passed away. Sharon died in 2001 and Philip in 2004. Both by suicide. Itās something that runs in my family, and now Iām walking through it with my son and daughter too.
Iāve struggled with depression myself. My mom did. My grandmother did. Itās generational. But I see how God has sustained me. If it werenāt for Him, I know I wouldnāt still be here.
I didnāt grow up hearing old hymns. I was raised Catholic. In my twenties, I became a Jehovahās Witness and stayed for 25 years. Then Mormon. Then honestly, I wandered into some really dark places. I spent a lifetime searching for God. I always felt like He was watching me but never quite connecting.
It wasnāt until I went through my divorce that I started to feel like He was pursuing me. Someone invited me to church, and I went. Thatās the first time I heard How Great Thou Art. That hymn just overwhelmed me. I thought, Who is this God that would love me so much? Who would save me?
That was the beginning of my awakening. It was 2014. And as time has gone on, the words of that hymn have meant more and more to me. Iāve seen how God has been working in my life all alongāeven in the pain, even when I didnāt realize it.
Learning about Godās sovereigntyāpredestination, grace, His choosing me before the foundation of the worldāitās so humbling. I still ask, Why me? Iām so imperfect. But Iām learning now that itās not about my faithfulness. Itās about His. And that changes everything.
I started coming to Sycamore almost two years ago. I was walking through something really hardāmaybe the hardest thing yetāand Iāve seen how God has met me here. Week after week, the sermons feel like theyāre speaking directly to me. Itās like the Spirit is saying, I see you. I know what you need. Being here has deepened my relationship with God in ways I didnāt expect.
Thereās a quote I love: God makes everything all right in the end. If itās not all right, itās not the end. Thatās what I hold on to. This lifeāitās temporary. Weāll be with Him one day, and all of this will just be a blip. But until then, He is the one who gets us through. Thatās why we call Him Saviorābecause He saves."
Mary's contact information can be found here.
Iāve struggled with depression myself. My mom did. My grandmother did. Itās generational. But I see how God has sustained me. If it werenāt for Him, I know I wouldnāt still be here.
I didnāt grow up hearing old hymns. I was raised Catholic. In my twenties, I became a Jehovahās Witness and stayed for 25 years. Then Mormon. Then honestly, I wandered into some really dark places. I spent a lifetime searching for God. I always felt like He was watching me but never quite connecting.
It wasnāt until I went through my divorce that I started to feel like He was pursuing me. Someone invited me to church, and I went. Thatās the first time I heard How Great Thou Art. That hymn just overwhelmed me. I thought, Who is this God that would love me so much? Who would save me?
That was the beginning of my awakening. It was 2014. And as time has gone on, the words of that hymn have meant more and more to me. Iāve seen how God has been working in my life all alongāeven in the pain, even when I didnāt realize it.
Learning about Godās sovereigntyāpredestination, grace, His choosing me before the foundation of the worldāitās so humbling. I still ask, Why me? Iām so imperfect. But Iām learning now that itās not about my faithfulness. Itās about His. And that changes everything.
I started coming to Sycamore almost two years ago. I was walking through something really hardāmaybe the hardest thing yetāand Iāve seen how God has met me here. Week after week, the sermons feel like theyāre speaking directly to me. Itās like the Spirit is saying, I see you. I know what you need. Being here has deepened my relationship with God in ways I didnāt expect.
Thereās a quote I love: God makes everything all right in the end. If itās not all right, itās not the end. Thatās what I hold on to. This lifeāitās temporary. Weāll be with Him one day, and all of this will just be a blip. But until then, He is the one who gets us through. Thatās why we call Him Saviorābecause He saves."
Mary's contact information can be found here.
"I was born in a small town in Arkansas, about ten miles from Prescott, off a dirt road. My two uncles and their families lived just down the road on farms, as did my grandparents. I had three older brothers, and I didnāt meet my father until I was three years oldāhe came home from WWII an angry, violent man. That changed everything. Our home revolved around his moods, and I lived in fear, never knowing what would set him off. The constant fear kept me timid and quiet.
We moved every two years as the Army transferred us, which made forming friendships hard. But when we were stationed in Puerto Rico, at just six years old, I would take the Army bus alone on Sundays to go to church. I still have the little New Testament they gave me there. Even though I didnāt understand why God allowed the fear and chaos in our home, He planted seeds of hope.
God gave me godly grandparents, aunts, and uncles. Every summer we were in the States, weād visit them in Arkansas, and thatās where I experienced real love. My Uncle Sam and Aunt Marybeth had a daughter two years younger than me. I stayed with them, and it became my safe haven. I remember my uncle coming home smiling, hugging his wife and daughterāand then me. That was when I learned the power of a hug and what love really looked like.
One night, after a family gathering, Uncle Sam took us kids out to the edge of the pasture under the stars and told us about Jesus. When he shared about Christ dying for my sins, I cried. I still cry when I think about it. I asked Jesus into my heart that night. I was eight years old.
From that moment on, even through fear and hardship, I knew Jesus was with me.
When I was eleven, we moved to Hampton, Virginia. Thatās where I met my husband, John. I was 11, he was 15, and he had come to visit one of my brothers. We married when I was 17. John was everything my father was notāgentle, godly, and kind. He reminded me of my Uncle Sam. He was the better half of us. We raised two children together and were blessed with four grandchildren and six great-grandchildren (one already in heaven).
One of the most profound experiences of my life came when my father was diagnosed with colon cancerāright around the time I became a grandmother for the first time. I cared for both my granddaughter and my father. For the first time in his life, my father fell in loveāwith a child. I was awestruck watching him soften toward her.
Later, when he entered a military hospice and needed someone to stay with him, my mother refused. With Johnās support, I moved in and cared for my father for nine months. Those months became a gift. The hospice nurses even began calling me to comfort other families. One day, sitting quietly beside his bed, my father, in his way apologized. And God gave me the words to forgive him. The fear Iād carried my whole life was replaced with forgiveness. Amazing grace.
When we moved to Richmond we put off looking for a church and listened to radio sermons instead. One day our granddaughter, who was visiting and listening to a sermon with us, called us 'bedside Baptists' because we listened to sermons in bed. That moment convicted us. John asked a friend for church recommendations. The first Sunday we walked into Sycamore, I knew: this was home. I felt the Holy Spiritās presence. We never even visited the other churches.
At Sycamore, my faith deepened through womenās Bible studies. I was intimidated at firstāfeeling like a kindergartener among scholarsābut I had a mentor, Sally Faris, who lovingly challenged me and helped me grow. She was confined to a wheelchair from MS, but was feisty, godly, and exactly who I needed.
Iām 82 now and one of the great joys of this stage of life is seeing Godās faithfulness when looking back over those years. The Scriptures that most shaped me are Genesis 50:20ā'You meant it for evil, but God meant it for good'āand Psalm 139, where He reminds us we are known and loved even in the womb. Those verses helped me understand my childhood. God didnāt waste it.
My husband adored our oldest great-grandchild before he passed away nearly ten years ago. His last trip was to her first birthday.
We moved every two years as the Army transferred us, which made forming friendships hard. But when we were stationed in Puerto Rico, at just six years old, I would take the Army bus alone on Sundays to go to church. I still have the little New Testament they gave me there. Even though I didnāt understand why God allowed the fear and chaos in our home, He planted seeds of hope.
God gave me godly grandparents, aunts, and uncles. Every summer we were in the States, weād visit them in Arkansas, and thatās where I experienced real love. My Uncle Sam and Aunt Marybeth had a daughter two years younger than me. I stayed with them, and it became my safe haven. I remember my uncle coming home smiling, hugging his wife and daughterāand then me. That was when I learned the power of a hug and what love really looked like.
One night, after a family gathering, Uncle Sam took us kids out to the edge of the pasture under the stars and told us about Jesus. When he shared about Christ dying for my sins, I cried. I still cry when I think about it. I asked Jesus into my heart that night. I was eight years old.
From that moment on, even through fear and hardship, I knew Jesus was with me.
When I was eleven, we moved to Hampton, Virginia. Thatās where I met my husband, John. I was 11, he was 15, and he had come to visit one of my brothers. We married when I was 17. John was everything my father was notāgentle, godly, and kind. He reminded me of my Uncle Sam. He was the better half of us. We raised two children together and were blessed with four grandchildren and six great-grandchildren (one already in heaven).
One of the most profound experiences of my life came when my father was diagnosed with colon cancerāright around the time I became a grandmother for the first time. I cared for both my granddaughter and my father. For the first time in his life, my father fell in loveāwith a child. I was awestruck watching him soften toward her.
Later, when he entered a military hospice and needed someone to stay with him, my mother refused. With Johnās support, I moved in and cared for my father for nine months. Those months became a gift. The hospice nurses even began calling me to comfort other families. One day, sitting quietly beside his bed, my father, in his way apologized. And God gave me the words to forgive him. The fear Iād carried my whole life was replaced with forgiveness. Amazing grace.
When we moved to Richmond we put off looking for a church and listened to radio sermons instead. One day our granddaughter, who was visiting and listening to a sermon with us, called us 'bedside Baptists' because we listened to sermons in bed. That moment convicted us. John asked a friend for church recommendations. The first Sunday we walked into Sycamore, I knew: this was home. I felt the Holy Spiritās presence. We never even visited the other churches.
At Sycamore, my faith deepened through womenās Bible studies. I was intimidated at firstāfeeling like a kindergartener among scholarsābut I had a mentor, Sally Faris, who lovingly challenged me and helped me grow. She was confined to a wheelchair from MS, but was feisty, godly, and exactly who I needed.
Iām 82 now and one of the great joys of this stage of life is seeing Godās faithfulness when looking back over those years. The Scriptures that most shaped me are Genesis 50:20ā'You meant it for evil, but God meant it for good'āand Psalm 139, where He reminds us we are known and loved even in the womb. Those verses helped me understand my childhood. God didnāt waste it.
My husband adored our oldest great-grandchild before he passed away nearly ten years ago. His last trip was to her first birthday.
I held my great-grandson Hunter, even though he died before he was born. We were all gathered in the ultrasound room to find out if it was a boy or a girl when the tech said that there was no heartbeat. It was elation to devastation in a heartbeatābut even in that, after delivery, God gave us a moment to hold him and to say hello and goodbye.
Two days before I fell last October, I was outside playing kickball with my eight-year-old great-grandson. Thatās the sweetness of life God has given me.
If someone else is going through fear, or hardship, or wondering if theyāre aloneāplease know: you are not. God is with you. Prayer matters and He doesnāt waste pain. He turns it into purpose. Donāt give up. God is so good."
Mary's contact information can be found here.
Mary's contact information can be found here.
"I grew up in a Christian home ā my dad was a PCA chaplain in the Army. Being a military family, we moved a lot, but I always had a sense of stability because of our family and our faith. I came to know Jesus from a young age. When I was eight, I was diagnosed with epilepsy. I remember being told at one point that I wouldnāt grow out of it. My mom cried, but I felt this deep peace I couldnāt explain. That was the first time I experienced the peace that surpasses understanding. Later, a follow-up MRI came back normal and I didnāt need medication anymore. God healed me. But even before the healing, I knew He was with me.
In college, my faith was still important to me, but it wasnāt until after I graduated that it really became my own. I read a book called Gospel Awakening, and it made me realize I hadnāt fully grasped the depth of my own sin ā and therefore hadnāt fully grasped the depth of Godās grace. I had always been a 'good girl,' but that book opened my eyes to how much I need Jesus, and how much He has already done for me. That was when the gospel truly came alive in my heart.
One verse thatās meant a lot to me is 2 Timothy 1:7: 'For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.' Thatās helped me in so many seasons ā especially motherhood. My husband Danny and I have been married ten years, and we have two boys, Richie and Marcus. Motherhood has stretched me in ways I didnāt expect, but also brought incredible joy and Iām so grateful.
In the past two years we have experienced two miscarriages, and that grief has been very real. But even in this season, Iāve known Godās presence. I have also felt His love through my Sycamore family. I donāt have all the answers, but I know He is good, and I know He draws near to the brokenhearted. And now, weāre expecting twins later this year ā a joyful surprise. Danny, the boys, and I are thrilled and so thankful.
Music has always been part of my life. I started taking lessons at age seven and studied art history in college. Music and art help me connect to God. I feel closest to Him when Iām creating or listening to or looking at something beautiful. Worship is a way I process things and express things that words alone canāt capture.
Music has always been part of my life. I started taking lessons at age seven and studied art history in college. Music and art help me connect to God. I feel closest to Him when Iām creating or listening to or looking at something beautiful. Worship is a way I process things and express things that words alone canāt capture.
My story is marked by healing, awakening, and loss ā and through it all, Iāve seen Godās faithfulness. I still struggle. I still fall short. But I know to whom I belong."
Leah's contact information can be found here.
"'In Christ Alone.' That was Laurieās song.
She sang it often. Every verse by heart. And every time she sang it, I knewāshe was in pain. But you wouldnāt know it just by looking at her. She had a kind of quiet strength, especially near the end. One day, I was upstairs in my bedroom with the door closed, and I could hear her voice carrying from the other end of the house. She was in her hospital bed in the family room, singing 'In Christ Alone.' I came downstairs and said, 'Youāre in a lot of pain, arenāt you?' She said yes.
That hymn is wrapped up in so many memories of my daughter. Laurie lived in the Outer Banks when she got diagnosed. They didnāt catch the cancer early, and by the time they did, it was far gone. They told her, 'Weāll just keep increasing your pain meds so you donāt wake up.' And I said, 'Thatās not an option.' I moved her, her husband, and her dog into my house and got her help here. We got two more years.
She started coming to church with me regularly then. Sheād just been in the hospital for a few days, but when I picked her up that Sunday morning, she said, 'Okay, letās go to church.' Thatās how committed she was. It wasnāt always like thatāshe had drifted from her faith in high school and collegeābut when she came back home, she came back to the Lord too. And that hymn, 'In Christ Alone,' became her declaration.
That same year, both my other daughter and my brother were also diagnosed with cancer. My brother passed away. It was a lot to walk through, all at once.
Now, every time I hear that hymn, I hear Laurieās voice.
She didnāt want to die. She said to me, 'Whoās going to take care of you?' And I told her, 'Youāve got to go. Iāll be okay.'
Laurie didnāt have children. Her dog was her baby. She was a paralegal and worked hard, but if she could come with me somewhere, she would. She loved to travel. We were close.
Iāve been part of Sycamore for over 40 years. Back when we were meeting in Evergreen Elementary and bringing box fans in the summer because there was no AC. I used to play piano. Iāve seen a lot over the years, but one of the most meaningful things was watching my daughter come back to her faith and sing that hymn with everything she had left.
So yesā'In Christ Alone' is my favorite hymn. Because it was Laurieās. And because I know what it meant when she sang it."
Alice's contact information can be found here.
Alice's contact information can be found here.
"I always believed that God existedācreation and logic demanded that someone or something had always existed. But I didnāt believe that Jesus was God. He was just a man (or so I thought).
That all changed in 1979.
For about six months, I felt an uneasiness I couldnāt shake. It followed me throughout the day, but at night, it was worse. I started having dreams about my standing before God. Then one night, I dreamed I was calling out to Jesus. I woke up and knewāI needed to settle this. I promised God that if He let me get to church that Sunday, I would profess faith in Christ.
I had never been much of a churchgoer. My earliest memory of church was attending Vacation Bible School at a Presbyterian church in Ft. Lauderdale when I was about three or four. All I really remember are the big wooden blocks. My family wasnāt opposed to church, but we werenāt regular attenders. Looking back, we were what you might call 'cultural Christians.' My parents had a strong work ethic, high morals, and a deep sense of right and wrong. Our family looked and acted like every churchgoing family I knew, but we werenāt in church on Sundays.
The village I grew up in had one church. I wonāt name the denomination, but I will say it wasnāt Baptist or Presbyterian. In Godās providence, I was spared from some bad theology I would have needed to unlearn later.
As I got older, I worked part-time through college at Sears. After college and marriage, my store manager approached me about taking a series of executive tests. If I scored well enough, Iād be put into a manager training program. I did, and within a year, I became the general manager of a Sears store. After 15 months, I was promoted to a larger store in another town. Thatās where I met a deacon from a Reformed Baptist churchāhe was one of my employees. He was a good worker, and I liked him. He liked me, too.
One day, he invited me to come hear him teach Sunday school. I thanked him, but then forgot about it. At that time, Sears stores in West Virginia were closed on Sundays, so Cathy and I would spend Sundays driving to our parentsā housesāone week to mine, the next week to hers. They loved seeing their grandchildren every other week, and we got a free meal out of it.
Some time later, my employee invited me again. I still didnāt go.
The third time, I finally asked, 'What time does Sunday school start? And how long does it last?' Because, you see, I didnāt want to be late for lunch.
The first Sunday we attended, we walked up the center aisle about halfway and sat down. As soon as Sunday school was over, I led my family straight to the car, and we headed off to our parentsā house.
Cathy, of course, had other plans. 'If we go again, weāre staying for the sermon.'
What? I hadnāt agreed to that.
But the next Sunday, we stayed. And we let our parents know weād be arriving about an hour later than usual.
Thatās when my uneasiness really started.
For six months, I was under conviction. I began to understand that we are all sinners. We sin in word, thought, and deed. And to have eternal life in heaven, you canāt have any sins charged to your account. Either Jesus paid for them, or you will.
Then came that Sunday.
Normally, my hands are cold. That Sunday was no differentāuntil the sermon started. Suddenly, I felt a strange warmth come over me. My hands were warm, and it seemed like the pastor and I were the only two people in the room. Years later, I read that John Wesley had a similar experience at Aldersgate.
That morning, on the second verse of Just As I Am, I walked forward. I professed my faith in Christ, and my life hasnāt been the same since.
A few years later, I was ordained a deacon. I knew I was a believer, but I also knew I didnāt know much about Godās Word. In Godās providence, I was assigned a second store to manage, which meant I spent a lot of time on the road. At first, I tried listening to radio pastors, but I realized they werenāt teaching what my pastor was teaching. So I bought the Bible on cassette tape. I listened to it for about an hour and a half every day, five days a week, as I drove between stores.
In 1983, I was promoted and moved again. We joined Mt. Gilead Baptist Church, another Reformed Baptist church. The pastor started a Bible Institute class, and six of us met every Thursday night for two hours. We studied the Bible, theology, Baptist history, and hermeneutics.
Five years later, we moved again. A couple more towns, a couple more churchesāthough these werenāt Reformed. Each time we moved, we stayed in a church until we were transferred elsewhere.
In 1993, we moved again and joined Johnston Chapel Baptist Churchāa '4.5-point Calvinist' church. A couple of years later, I was given a traveling job. Thatās when I discovered R.C. Sproul on the radio. I looked forward to hearing Reformed teaching again. I bought a Reformation Study Bible, started reading World Magazine, and ordered a copy of the Sproul/MacArthur debate on baptism. I figured if those two couldnāt convince each other to change their positions, what chance did I have? Even though they strongly disagreed, they remained the best of friends.
God was preparing me for my next transfer in 2002.
We visited nine different churches before joining Westminster Presbyterian (PCA) in Lancaster, PA. Two years later, we moved to Maryland and joined New Covenant Presbyterian (PCA). Thatās when I took a class explaining why Presbyterians baptize the children of believers and apply the water to the individualānot the individual to the water. That was it. I was now a full-fledged Presbyterian.
When we moved to Chesterfield in 2006, we visited Spring Run Presbyterian first, since it was close to home. Everyone there looked like our kids and grandkids. Since we were new in town, I said, 'Letās check out the church that gave birth to this one. Maybe there are some folks there our age.'
We did. There were. And we stayed.
Sycamore has been a blessing. Iāve grown in my faith here through sound Bible teaching, serving as an elder, and teaching Adult Sunday School. The men in our Menās Bible Study have meant more to me than any other group since my mid-30s. I love our discussionsāwrestling with what the Bible says and figuring out how to apply it in todayās world.
I havenāt had another moment like my conversion, but Iām blessed every time Harry or Sean explain a passage I hadnāt understood before. Communion is especially meaningful to me. I sit there, remembering what Jesus suffered and died forāon my behalf.
If I could tell someone one thing, it would be this:
Give up a couple of hours on a Sunday morning. Visit a church that believes and teaches the Bible. I canāt think of a better church than Sycamore."
Gene's contact information can be found here.
Gene's contact information can be found here.
āLove Lifted Meā isnāt just a song for Tom and Kathyāitās a reminder of Christās grace and faithfulness through every season of their lives.
āThe song is based on when Jesus calls Peter to walk on water,ā Kathy explains. āWhen the waves overwhelmed him, Jesus reached out and lifted him up. That imageāof Christ lifting us in love, grace, and mercyāhas stayed with us.ā
For Tom, the song holds special meaning. āIt was playing at the exact moment I was saved,ā he recalls. āThat church had a āsong of the month,ā so we sang it every week. It became the hymn I remember most from that time in my life.ā
Faith became the foundation of their home. āWe often sang hymns with our kids,ā Kathy shares. āWe were just a normal couple, figuring out life together. But this song reminded us that Christās love isnāt just something to knowāitās something to rest in.ā
One moment, in particular, cemented that truth. āMy aunt and uncle were in a terrible accident. Their car flipped, but they werenāt hurt. I asked how they managed being stuck upside down, and my aunt said, āYou just hold hands and sing hymns.' That stuck with me. So when Tom and I face struggles, we hold hands and sing Love Lifted Me.ā
At Sycamore, theyāve found a church that deepens their faith. āSean and Donnieās ministry constantly reminds us of Godās grace and mercyāhow deeply He loves us,ā Kathy says. āItās in the sermons, my womenās Bible studies, our community group, and the friendships weāve made here.ā
Looking back, Tom and Kathy see how God wove their story togetherāhow He lifted them up, just as He did for Peter on the water. And through every high and low, Love Lifted Me remains their song.
Kathy and Tom's contact information can be found here.
Kathy and Tom's contact information can be found here.
"Seven months ago, I was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma. I was actually with my parents when I found out, which, looking back, was such a blessing. They had come to visit me, and I was feeling terrible. I couldnāt stop throwing up and had this unbearable back pain. I hadnāt been able to sleep for days. It was a pain that was so intense, it felt like it consumed everything. I barely got two hours of sleep a night. When I went to the emergency room, they told me there was a mass the size of a grapefruit in my abdomen. Thatās when they said, āYou probably have cancer.ā I couldnāt believe it. It was surreal. I remember just feeling numb, like, how could this be happening?
From that moment on, everything has been a blur, but I know that God has been with me through every part of this journey. Itās been so difficult, and there have been moments when I thought I couldnāt keep going, but God kept reminding me that He was there.
I spent about a month straight in the hospital after my diagnosis. I started at St. Francis, but they transferred me to Johnson Willis because they have a great cancer center. If you ever have to go through this, Iād recommend Johnson Willisātheyāve been amazing. But during that month, I was never alone. I had a group of 5-6 friends from Sycamore who took shifts. They were there with me, offering support, praying for me, and just sitting with me while I rested or went through treatments. I could feel Godās love through every single one of them. Iāll never forget how Lori Higley stayed with me through every single procedure, no matter how tough or uncomfortable. She was with me during every scan, every swallow study, every test. I remember her sitting there, just holding my hand, even when I felt like I couldnāt go on. I canāt even begin to explain how much that meant to me. Lori and I have become so much closer through this. Itās been such a gift to have her by my side.
In the midst of all this, Iāve also had to face my mental health struggles. Before cancer, mental health was the hardest battle I was fighting. For over ten years, Iāve struggled with anxiety, depression, PTSD, ADHD, and an eating disorder. It was the kind of thing that wore me down, piece by piece. I felt like I was fighting an uphill battle every single day. But during my first month in the hospital, I went cold turkey off my psychiatric medications. I had no choiceāmy body couldnāt handle them anymore, and I couldnāt keep taking them. It was one of the hardest things Iāve ever done, but in some strange way, I realized that those meds were actually doing more harm than good. My panic attacks became more manageable. I felt clearer mentally, like a fog had lifted. And while I still struggle with my mental health, I feel like God has used this experience to teach me so much about my own strength and His faithfulness. I didnāt expect it, but Iāve come to see how God has been using this cancer journey not just for physical healing, but for emotional healing as well.
The hardest part has been finding peace in the uncertainty. Even though Iām in remission now, Iām not completely done with treatments. Iām still having tests, and that can be so stressful. Thereās always this lingering fear of what the next test might show. But I keep reminding myself that God is in control, even when it feels like everything is out of my hands. Itās a constant battle to trust, but I know Heās been with me every step of the way.
One thing that has really kept me going through this is the community Iāve found at Sycamore. When I was diagnosed, I knew my church family was going to be there for me, but I had no idea just how deep their support would go. My friends from church were there for me in ways that I could never have imagined. It wasnāt just about the prayers or the visits, though those were incredibly important. It was about the tangible love they showed me. They made sure I never felt alone, even when I was physically isolated in a hospital room.
In the midst of all this, Iāve also had to face my mental health struggles. Before cancer, mental health was the hardest battle I was fighting. For over ten years, Iāve struggled with anxiety, depression, PTSD, ADHD, and an eating disorder. It was the kind of thing that wore me down, piece by piece. I felt like I was fighting an uphill battle every single day. But during my first month in the hospital, I went cold turkey off my psychiatric medications. I had no choiceāmy body couldnāt handle them anymore, and I couldnāt keep taking them. It was one of the hardest things Iāve ever done, but in some strange way, I realized that those meds were actually doing more harm than good. My panic attacks became more manageable. I felt clearer mentally, like a fog had lifted. And while I still struggle with my mental health, I feel like God has used this experience to teach me so much about my own strength and His faithfulness. I didnāt expect it, but Iāve come to see how God has been using this cancer journey not just for physical healing, but for emotional healing as well.
The hardest part has been finding peace in the uncertainty. Even though Iām in remission now, Iām not completely done with treatments. Iām still having tests, and that can be so stressful. Thereās always this lingering fear of what the next test might show. But I keep reminding myself that God is in control, even when it feels like everything is out of my hands. Itās a constant battle to trust, but I know Heās been with me every step of the way.
One thing that has really kept me going through this is the community Iāve found at Sycamore. When I was diagnosed, I knew my church family was going to be there for me, but I had no idea just how deep their support would go. My friends from church were there for me in ways that I could never have imagined. It wasnāt just about the prayers or the visits, though those were incredibly important. It was about the tangible love they showed me. They made sure I never felt alone, even when I was physically isolated in a hospital room.
Iāve also felt called to share my story with others. Iāve been open about my cancer journey on Facebook, and Iāve had people reach out to me from all parts of my lifeāpeople I havenāt spoken to in years, even people from college. Itās been incredible to hear how my story has encouraged others, and I know thatās Godās doing. Thereās no way I would have the strength to do this on my own. Itās all Him.
If youāre going through something similar, I want to tell youākeep going. Itās hard, I know. But I promise you, God has a plan, even if you canāt see it right now. I know thatās hard to believe when youāre in the middle of pain or uncertainty, but He is faithful. Donāt give up. God has a reason for your story, just as Heās been showing me why Heās been walking me through this."
Cody's contact information can be found here.
Cody's contact information can be found here.
"I would sum up my testimony with two words: grace and goodness. These two words really define my entire story. I was born into a Christian home, but it was a very rule-driven environment. There wasnāt much talk about graceājust a lot of rules about what you could and couldnāt do. My parents taught me everything I needed to know about being a Christian, but I never really understood the concept of grace.
When I lost my mom at 15, it was a very low point in my life. I didnāt feel God's grace or goodness at that time. I didnāt understand why I had to lose my mom at such a young age, and I struggled with the feeling that I couldnāt trust God when bad things happened. My family gave me love, but I didnāt understand why bad things happened to good people.
After high school, I stayed at home for college. I didnāt want to leave my dad alone. Once I finished college, I moved to Atlanta to live with some good friends, just to experience living on my own. My dad remarried, but I didnāt want to live with a stepmomāI felt I didnāt need one.
I grew up attending a Christian school, a Baptist school, but again, it wasnāt filled with an understanding of grace. I didnāt have strong Christian friendships to guide me through the loss of my mom, and as a high schooler, I was trying to figure out how to navigate it all.
In Atlanta, I started dating a guy and living a lifestyle far from God. But something was still pulling me to church, even though I wasnāt living like I should. Iād go to churchāsometimes aloneājust for a sense of connection, not really understanding why I felt compelled to go.
After dating this guy for eight years, I ended the relationship, feeling lost. I didnāt have many close friends at the time. My brother suggested I try a church that he was attending, so I visited a PCA church. The first Sunday I attended was also Brian's first Sunday at the same church, and thatās when we met. I got involved with the church quickly. It felt like I had found the kind of Christian community Iād been missing: one filled with grace, fellowship, and the freedom to have fun. For the first time, I truly understood that Godās grace means He loves us even when we make mistakes.
Brian and I grew together in our faith. He taught me more about grace, as he had come to Christ later in life and had a deeper understanding of it than I did. I had grown up with legalism, where everything was about right and wrong, and I struggled with trusting in God's grace. I was always trying to be good enough, but Brian helped me see that I donāt need to be perfectāI just need to trust in Godās grace.
We got married, and when Benjamin was born, everything seemed perfect. My pregnancy and labor were both smooth, and the day was as ideal as I could have imagined. Brian had even been journaling about Godās goodness before Benjamin was born, reflecting on how perfect everything was. But when Benjamin was born, we were initially told he might have Down syndrome, though the doctors didnāt feel the need to test him at first. When it was confirmed, I was overwhelmed, but Brian, with his understanding of God's goodness, was able to support me and remind me that God had been good to us up until that point, and He would continue to be.
For the next two years, I struggled with the reality of raising a child with Down syndrome. I watched other parents with children who were hitting milestones like walking and talking, while Benjamin wasn't able to do those things. But through it all, I saw God's grace in Brianās unwavering support and in the way God held me up when I felt like I couldnāt stand on my own.
Eventually, I prayed for another child, and after a miscarriage, God blessed me with another babyāmy sonāwho didnāt have Down syndrome. I didnāt deserve this child, but I knew that God had been gracious to me. Benjamin has been a blessing, even though I didnāt always see it that way at first.
Then, just a few years ago, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. At first, I was scared and angry. I didnāt understand why it was happening, but over time, I started to see how Godās goodness was evident even in this. Unlike the legalistic mindset I grew up with, I didnāt feel punished for my mistakes; I felt God's grace carrying me through. I was able to trust that He would bring me through this trial, just as He had with all the other challenges in my life.
Though I still have ongoing recovery from chemo and some health issues, I trust that Godās goodness will continue to see me through whatever comes next. I still worry, especially about the cancer returning, but Iāve learned to rest in the assurance that Godās goodness will guide me through whatever happens.
Looking back at all the trialsālosing my mom, raising a child with Down syndrome, facing breast cancerāIāve seen the hand of God in all of it. Even though I still struggle with anxiety and sometimes question His plans, I know that nothing in my life has happened by accident. God has been with me every step of the way, and His grace and goodness are what carry me."
Leigh Ann's contact information can be found here.
Leigh Ann's contact information can be found here.
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